Anxiety

I haven't had an anxiety attack like this in years. I am mentally killing myself. I am hurting inside so bad right now. I just wish I could stop thinking so much. I try to sleep and I can't get my mind to calm down enough to just rest. Please, just let me rest. Let this pain in my chest and stomach go away. I don't know who I am trying to talk to right now. Someone who is willing to listen I guess. Maybe tomorrow I will start my day off fresh. Start my day with something good. I don't know. I am not ready for all of this change. I am rambling now. FUCK. I just want to stop hurting... please.